Praying through the song “Available” By: Elevation Worship
“Narrow as the road may seem
I’ll follow where Your spirit leads
Broken as my life may be
I will give You every piece”
Hey, God. I am struggling. I know that You are so good. I know that every time in the past when I have chosen Your will for my life over my own, that it has been worth it. I am very aware of the road ahead being narrow. I want to follow where Your spirit leads and give You every broken piece of me, but for some reason I am struggling to fully surrender.
“I hear You call
I am available
I say, ‘Yes, Lord
I am available’”
I have memories of when I led a youth group in this song. Being completely honest, it was easier to say “yes” to You when it was comfortable for me. I do hear you call, and I am available… but only partially if I am honest with myself. I long to sing this song and really mean it one day. I thought I was already there right now. I am thankful that You have invaded my life with grace.
“Here I am with open hands
Counting on Your grace again
Less of me and more of You
Oh, I just wanna see You move”
I cannot sing this part. There is too much in my hands that I am clinging to. Lord, help me lay each of them at Your feet. I really am counting on Your grace again. Provide a better perspective on it all; remind me it is all to further Your kingdom.
“Here I am, here I am
You can have it all
You can have it all
Everything I am
Everything I have, it belongs to You anyway”
I am here. There is not a place I can be where You are not present. I pray that, in Your strength and not my own failing strength, I put You first. In the morning, afternoon, and night that I would truly worship You in all I do. That I would get to a point where I can stretch my hands out wide and take in all that You have for me without having to try and balance everything I am trying to carry. Everything I have and Everything I am is Yours; it was never mine to begin with.
“For the one who gave me life
Nothing is a sacrifice
Use me how You want to, God
Have Your throne within my heart”
Whew. This part of the song always gets me. Sometimes I can sing this part so loud, while other times I have to stop singing completely. These four lines make me want to sink to the ground with my chin in my chest and my hands open wide. What a reminder. The Maker of Heaven and earth came down- stepped out of Heaven- lived a perfect life, and died for the sins of the world. In doing this, God, You made a way for us to have a relationship with You. Abba, Father, I fervently pray that I would continue to take things out of my hand and place them at Your feet. That I would put You first in ALL that I do. That I would fully surrender; That I would be available. Amen.
God is good, all the time. All the time, God is good.
Much love from Hammond, LA,
KJ
I’m praying for you to take your struggles to God and leave them with him. It’s hard, but you can do this.
I have always loved this song but now I love it even more. I listened this morning in my quiet time with new ears. So very beautiful. Katelyn, keep wrestling these things through with God. He’s always right there waiting on us to lay it all at His feet. He loves it when we humbly bring our doubts & questions, lean in, listen, and ultimately surrender it all to Him. Praying for all of you!
I love reading your words…oh how we need to always remember what the Lord did for us! His sacrifice made it to where we now get to live for him without any restrictions! Following the Lord fully means laying down our lives in total submission. Forsaking all that we have to be his disciple! How beautiful is the relationship between his children and himself!
You and your beautiful heart are being taught so much right now! I pray that the Lord will continue to guide your steps, comfort your heart and allow you to speak into the lives of all those around you!
You are so loved!!
Xoxoxo
Mindy
Hey Katelyn! Thanks for sharing your heart in this post. I share this same struggle with you. I’m constantly reminded that there is no such thing as partial surrender to God. He wants full and complete surrender of everything. Years ago A.W. Tozer said that within every heart there is a throne and a cross. Either I am on the throne and Jesus is on the cross or I am on the cross and Jesus is on the throne. It is my prayer that we can daily sacrifice (Romans 12:1-2) our lives to God so that He can rule and reign in us. I love you Katelyn and I promise you my continued daily prayers for God’s leading, provision, and peace over you. I’m so proud of you.
My sweet Katelyn??
Keep clinging to Jesus, and He will bring you through. It many not be easy, but He’s there. It may not be comfortable, but He’s there. You may feel inadequate, but He’s there. He will give you strength to do anything He places before you-that’s His way. He loves you and will strengthen you and empower you for what lies ahead. Just take it one day at a time ????
What encouragement to open my hands and not grasp. Open hands are able to give. And receive. Clenched grasping hands are not. Praying you will receive much from our Father as you open your hands completely to Him. Love you Katelyn!!
Donna!! Thank you so much for your prayers; It means the world to me! He is worth it all!
Hey, Carla!!
Thank you so much for taking the time to read my blog! You are so right. I appreciate you sharing your love for this song with me; it is a good one. Thank you for your prayers! Much love!
KJ