Praying through the song “Available” By: Elevation Worship

“Narrow as the road may seem

I'll follow where Your spirit leads

Broken as my life may be

I will give You every piece”

Hey, God. I am struggling. I know that You are so good. I know that every time in the past when I have chosen Your will for my life over my own, that it has been worth it. I am very aware of the road ahead being narrow. I want to follow where Your spirit leads and give You every broken piece of me, but for some reason I am struggling to fully surrender. 

“I hear You call

I am available

I say, ‘Yes, Lord

I am available’”

I have memories of when I led a youth group in this song. Being completely honest, it was easier to say “yes” to You when it was comfortable for me. I do hear you call, and I am available… but only partially if I am honest with myself. I long to sing this song and really mean it one day. I thought I was already there right now. I am thankful that You have invaded my life with grace. 

“Here I am with open hands

Counting on Your grace again

Less of me and more of You

Oh, I just wanna see You move”

I cannot sing this part. There is too much in my hands that I am clinging to. Lord, help me lay each of them at Your feet. I really am counting on Your grace again. Provide a better perspective on it all; remind me it is all to further Your kingdom. 

“Here I am, here I am

You can have it all

You can have it all

Everything I am

Everything I have, it belongs to You anyway”

I am here. There is not a place I can be where You are not present. I pray that, in Your strength and not my own failing strength, I put You first. In the morning, afternoon, and night that I would truly worship You in all I do. That I would get to a point where I can stretch my hands out wide and take in all that You have for me without having to try and balance everything I am trying to carry. Everything I have and Everything I am is Yours; it was never mine to begin with. 

“For the one who gave me life

Nothing is a sacrifice

Use me how You want to, God

Have Your throne within my heart”

Whew. This part of the song always gets me. Sometimes I can sing this part so loud, while other times I have to stop singing completely. These four lines make me want to sink to the ground with my chin in my chest and my hands open wide. What a reminder. The Maker of Heaven and earth came down- stepped out of Heaven- lived a perfect life, and died for the sins of the world. In doing this, God, You made a way for us to have a relationship with You. Abba, Father, I fervently pray that I would continue to take things out of my hand and place them at Your feet. That I would put You first in ALL that I do. That I would fully surrender; That I would be available. Amen.

God is good, all the time. All the time, God is good.

Much love from Hammond, LA,

KJ